often do i wonder

often do i wonder     what went wrong

     on the journey     of life of such limitless potential

to opportunities squandered     to promises i can’t hold

so i promise to do better     better a little later than never

     but i then go     back to the same old

blunders & bad habits that i can’t break

aware that as the clock ticks     time slips     away

     hoping the deadlines ain’t over but they won’t wait

and of course i know     one day      it’ll be too late

often do i wonder     what i could be

     on the journey     of life of such limitless potential

what i could achieve     at least the unbelievable

often do i wonder     what went wrong

     on the journey     of life of such limitless potential

i look up upon the     “ideal” me but then i wonder

must he look under     at the real me

     or does he look up     and still see

g o a l s   to be achieved     p o t e n t i a l   he can’t reach

does he   f e e l   just like me     does he still deal with these

     insecurities     adjust the angles and absurdly we will see

potentially     myself  to be the ideal to those of me

to whom my potential is too high to reach     so why should i

     try to keep     myself occupied with beliefs

that i am not ideal     that i should have been he

who isn’t even really me     but if i try to beat

     my insecurities and let them hide     and seek to be

better now or never     and remember comparisons don’t matter

cause not even     mike tyson was born knowing how to fight

     marshall mathers     still had to learn his first word

even usain bolts     had to take his first step so

let go of regret     cause potential is always

     limitless but i know at least be proud of myself     cause

then i will approach my ideal     eventually